quick what is everyone doing right now
okay reblogging this again just to say that i love love love reading these,, like it’s so incredible how we’re all doing such vastly different things at the same time…ik it’s an obvious thing but it’s also insane to think about.
I am sitting in the dark like an absolute chaos goblin
thinking about the ever-fluctuating variation in my vocal tics
the sounds I make without thinking at all
(either to express irritation or some other feeling)
(or to try and distract myself from unpleasant memories/thoughts)
sometimes they are words, real or nonsense or a mixture
sometimes just syllables
i don’t choose them consciously
i have absolutely no say in deciding what they will be
I can’t even make them on command, at least not sounding the same as when they happen spontaneously
it took me HOURS to catch it on a recording
and i am trying not to think too hard
about whether it means anything
that my latest one is apparently rinzlergrowl