having a mind that is “clever” mostly by seeing connections that were already there… sometimes feels like a fake cleverness.

i didn’t create anything. i just found it. there is a nonzero chance that many other people found it before me

in my case this is less common than one might expect. i do quite often find connections that nobody around me has ever heard of or thought of before.

BUT i have lived in this mind so long that it is very hard for me to gauge, in the absence of other viewpoints, when that’s gonna be the case

sometimes my brain goes “ive never heard that before but it sounds like an old joke”

“Charisma Carpenter has been around a long time, there’s probably a hundred people saying it sound like Jesus’s drag name”

do i listen?

who knows

who cares