I try to be someone who acknowledges the problematic aspects of the fandoms I love, even as I can’t help continuing to love them

and I try to listen with an open mind to the discourse on what is problematic

and sometimes, in the should-definitely-be-sleeping hours of the early, early morning… this side of me can get tangled surreally with the pattern-recognizing, pun-seeking, fuckin nerd side of me

and a tumblr post about how “elite is always an antisemitic dogwhistle” can lead my brain into a thought like “does ‘warrior elite of the MCP’ get less problematic if you spell it e1337”