femmedummy:

I’m so bad at accepting compliments I literally said “noooooo” when I was told i was funny last night… I am funny I don’t ever question that lmao

Oh god me too

I don’t know if I was deliberately raised that way, but i grew up with a VERY strong idea that no matter how cool you think you are, you must always pretend self-deprecation, and it is extremely rude and socially inept to ever admit that you believe you are cool

So even though i am basically a megalomaniac narcissist and consider myself one of the top 100 geniuses in human history, I keep talking about myself in such ways that even therapists refuse to believe me when i tell them I don’t have low self esteem

It took me a LONG time to realize that some people really genuinely do hate themselves and devalue themselves and blame themselves for stuff. I honestly thought it was all just a social script